". isn't it sad how so many people feel just like that and still life as such stays like it is? i mean, why not change something??? i don't know. for myself, i feel pretty much in a rut these days/weeks/months/years but either don't dare or don't know how to change that."
So much of what we as people do on this planet is repetitive, useless and pointless. How many hours of my life have I spent just shopping for toilet paper. Sitting in traffic? Watching a boring program on the television.
Remnds me of a song lyric from Fates Warning, from A Pleasent Shade of Grey: "Let nothing bleed into nothing and did nothing at all."
Days go by, months go by, years go by, suddenly you realize all those things you wanted to do, you didn't get done, all those dreams didn't happen and the world has beaten you down past the point of caring.
One day of nothing just sort of bleeds into another day of nothing, until you have this great big bland nothing. Just a nice, safe, pleasant shade of gray.
oh yeah, that is the kind of expansion i hoped for ... isn't it sad how so many people feel just like that and still life as such stays like it is? i mean, why not change something??? i don't know. for myself, i feel pretty much in a rut these days/weeks/months/years but either don't dare or don't know how to change that. at least i sometimes succeed in putting these emotions into some kind of image and this works as a bit of an outlet. i envy you the possibility to let it all hang out, shouting into a microphone or hammering some bass guitar or drum.
thx for sharing.
i did not recognize there's a problem with music. i have never tried to perform music (apart from high school way back when) in public, we just do it at home for fun. and then of course i listen to a lot of music and love it - but i can imagine that it might be pretty frustrating, if you think there's noone out there liking yours. on the other hand, you have got a myspace account where people can listen and comment, that's a start, don't you think? but the best thing about music is, that it is a team sport - playing or singing together is one of the best and most rewarding things for me. imagining someone sitting on his or her computer alone for hours and creating electronic music makes me very sad.
I have no team.
It's just me... on myspace, fighting against a sea of musicians crying out to be heard. (Hmm, reminds me of deviant art!)
Sorry to make you sad!
seriously though I had a really good band together just before I left Vegas. I tossed that all out the the window when I made the big move two years ago. Since then I just haven't been able to find a group situation. I am a tad picky in the kinds of music i'd do though. It's my nature, I can't help it!!!